Good people, do not do what I have done. Do not do it, so that you are not made to feel as I do; as if every nerve leapt from my body and into a molten sea of terror.
I in my absolute nature am a fool, an idiot, a muddlehead. Never in all my life did I take one thing as serious, no threat, no danger, no risk nor warning.
And by such means, I thought I would never feel fear, for never had I taken something to be more serious than the work I did in grade school.
O good people do not live as I have. For my time I avoided any tether to tie me down to Earth. The heavens are wonderful, and it’s there I had thought that I’d found peace, that no worldly thing could have hurt me.
All of me I had given to the wind, but I could not give my body. I said I am a fool, and I’ll tell you what brought me to saying so.
I am certain, so absolutely certain, that at this time I have destroyed my life, the life I thought I would have. I know not in which way I’ve done this, but like god has struck me with it I am filled with certain terror.
Do not cast off things as if they were trivial. Take care, take care, take care. Do not wait until some final moment, however you can avoid that fool’s practice please do.
As for me, I will live my life, and if I can’t manage that, then I’ll die, and by either way, I pray you and I’ll find some sort of peace.